Posted on April 29th, 2007 1 comment
I enjoy watching people frantically scatter on the street below my apartment when the sky opens to unleash an unexpected torrential downpour. Especially when it’s a pack of sorority girls, and they’re screaming. Does that make me a bad person?
No, but punching babies does.
Posted on April 19th, 2007 No comments
The restroom at work was completely silent just now except for the unmistakable sound of the guy in the stall next to me furiously thumb-clicking away on his Blackberry’s mini keyboard. I wish I knew who it was, if only to remember never to borrow his phone to make a call.
Posted on April 12th, 2007 No comments
Posted on April 1st, 2007 1 comment
The first five months were more difficult than any I had ever endured — by a large margin. Anyone that knows my history well knows that that’s saying a lot. It absolutely blew me away. Everything just stopped and stayed motionless for what became endless weeks. What I had identified as myself suffered a sudden complete annihilation. It turned out to be exactly what I needed.
There were elements of my life that had become toxic, and they needed to go. I just didn’t have the perspective to see it at the time. I couldn’t or wouldn’t do it myself…so they were removed by force. I was bewildered back then, but now I can’t imagine it happening any other way. It was elegant in its stark simplicity — like simply-drawn characters doing exactly what the audience would expect them to. There were a few weeks of confusion, upheaval, and adjustment, and then the whole scene quickly and neatly wrapped itself up. It was unimaginable and devastating and perfect.
What followed has been the greatest period of personal growth I’ve ever experienced. Seven months later, I have a new job, new friends, new interests, and a far more rewarding way of approaching life.
Sometimes it takes nothing short of a total catastrophe to set things back on the right path, and the catastrophe is not something to be feared. It comes when it’s needed, and for that reason it should be welcomed as a blessing.
Saturn comes back around and lifts you up like a child or drags you down like a stone to consume you until you choose to let this go.
Give away the stone. Let the ocean take and transmutate this cold and fated anchor. Let the waters kiss and transmutate these leaden grudges into gold.